Im Locked Inside My Box

im locked inside my box
fighting with hope, while silently i shout
not knowing how i got here
who has the key to get me out

did i chose to be here
or was i forced into this hell
am i soiled with many mistakes
or was it only once i fell

im trapped inside this darkness
does this darkness have a name
are you giving yours to it
is that your head is hung in shame

what is this wickedness
would you want this suicide
you should know when you come to close
i long to run and hide

where did it come from
will it ever go home
how do i make it leave
when did i start feeling so alone

im locked inside my box
fighting with hope, while i silently shout
not knowing how i got here
who has the key to get me out

One Regret

i look into those eyes
i see the pain of my actions
i know the hurt i caused
a glimpse upon the soul i made
the soul i killed
i knew He loved me
i took advantage of it
He succumbed to my every desire
i made Him
i killed Him
i try to blame Him
make everything His fault
it is mine
i am to blame
how can i be so mad at Him
i am the one doing wrong
he knew i loved Him
that i still love Him
that’s why He let me mold Him
make Him perfect
perfect in my eyes
perfect in everyone’s eyes
Perfect
it was only in my eyes
He was perfect before “us”
i made Him
i killed Him
He knew my intentions were good
He thought they were good
i thought they were good
He wanted to be perfect
for me
He changed
for me
i made Him
i killed Him