i think i think

so today is the day i started school again. and i broke up with alex, or a break...who knows? but i really don't think we are going to get back together this time. i feel like it is the final straw. this is weird. he sounded numb. like he didn't or doesn't care anymore. i don't know what i'm feeling or how to take this mix of emotion. wow this sucks.

I QUIT!!

im calling it quits on life
God is love

WHAT THE HECK??

no matter how hard i try there are just some people that can so easly change how i feel in a blink of an eye and i hate it! and why can guys not read minds...am i right girls? i mean can we make things any more odvious and they still don't get it. we basically have to put it in writing and have them follow along while we read it to them so that they might understand what we are trying to tell them. why does passion have to include anger? well sorry for the venting this morning. it is 1:26 and i haven't slept more then two hours last night and have yet to fall asleep tonight. maybe its because i have tried going to bed angry both nights? or maybe it is this stupid nosey surgery. who really knows. oh well. at least putting these things in writing helps me sort through them and calm down. but my tum tum does hurt. maybe i will try going to sleep...again...
good night *or morning*
God is love